You want to know the reason why I think despite anything and everything that even if Dean’s id, his shadow self or whatever else you want to call it is calling the shots now that he’s a demon that there is hope?
It’s this. It’s this small moment in the entirety of the 5 minutes promo. It’s this:
I have been talking a lot about how and when Dean calls Sam Sammy and how it has a lot to do with Dean’s inability to let go (I wrote a meta on the significance of wording a while ago during S9, see here). And now we have those exact words together. Written by Dean.
SAMMY LET ME GO!
I’m sorry but this shot alone is genious (the whole promo is fucking amazing) and at least to me it makes it all the more sure that Dean Winchester is not dead and that - after a long and painful and dark and freaking exciting journey for us to watch - he will be back. His body might be dead and his demon might call the shots, but there is still Dean in there. The one we fell for the moment he was barely more than a shadow stumbling through a dark apartment looking for a beer…
Reblogging because another thought just crossed my mind. One that might be a bit more tragic.
What if Dean wrote that small little note before he left the bunker in 9x23? What if he placed it on his desk for Sam to find when he was going after Metatron already to tell him, to prepare him and ask him to let him go, because he knew fully well what he was getting himself into and expected not to make it out alive. So this is his goodbye note.
The more I think about it the more sense this scenario makes for me, because even though we know Dean doesn’t want to be found, I don’t think Demon!Dean would have written
"Damn let me go" but rather
"Don’t look for me"
or something like that. I mean, the other scenario still remains a possibility, but I think Dean writing this before turning into what he never wanted to become might make more sense (?), because the “letting go”aspect to me feels rather connected to “dying” in this case than a notion of “don’t look for me”.
It’s endlessly tragic and also kind of hypocritical of Dean to ask Sam to do what he wasn’t able to do when Sam was ready to die.
Freaking Winchesters… ;_; *runs to the bathroom at work so no one sees she’s tearing up*
I like that idea a lot that Dean wrote it prior to going up against Metatron. I think we’d need to reexamine everything he said to Sam that day prior to the confrontation with Metatron because it would throw new light their conversations.
Certainly Dean did want Sam to do what he couldn’t do in 9.01. He says, “it’s better this way.” — better that he die than become what the Mark and Blade were turning him into. Rather than hypocritical, I think Carver wants us to see it as maturity. Dean appeared to go along with Sam’s desire to save him, but he knew he was dying and there wasn’t time. I don’t think it occurred to Dean that he’d be brought back from the dead as a demon.